…and we have a laugh and the kissing’s really good and there’s no-one getting in the way of the laughing and the kissing. Is that too much to ask?”
- Sarra Manning
I feel like I only come here anymore when Frodo throws me a curveball. No, I’m still not seeing him. And there’s no one in between either. I’ve been to Vegas and back, lost another ten lbs and everyone is “amazed” at how hot I look now (as opposed to before when apparently, I looked like crap). But the bf situation is still gone and I don’t know what to do about it.
I wrote this post two months ago and I hate how it still applies and it never changes ever. I feel like I’ve come such a long way from when I started this blog but I’m still nowhere at all.
Three years ago I was large, in love with my high school crush, only friends with high school people, had low self-confidence, jobless, couldn’t figure out what I wanted to with my life and struggling to impress everyone…
Now I’m small(er), over that bastard, friends with a group of different types of people, have better confidence, have a good job, finishing my degree and done with impressing anyone but myself.
But as far as men go, I’m still nowhere and I know I keep whining about the same crap over and over again but, seriously, life? If you’re hearing me, I’d at least like options. You can dangle it in front of my nose whatever. At least it would still be there. Right now I have nothing and it’s really depressing.
I want a dateable guy. Even if it doesn’t end up working out. I just want someone to call, to text, to think about… right now all I have is Frodo and I’m sick of pining over something I can’t have again.
EDIT: Honestly, don’t even bother commenting on this. This is just a stupid rant that’s like all my stupid rant and we know what’ll happen in the end anyway… absolutely nothing.
I’m going to comment anyway because I’ve seen it before and I know what will happen. One day soon, you will notice some boy and he will start talking to you and it will happen…
I will refer you to Melanies Randomness
and here
Why Won’t He Say What I want him To Say
Aw G, I know exactly how this feels and it can be tough. And it doesn’t help when your girl friends tell you, “don’t worry you’ll find someone! It’ll happen when you least expect it!” I actually find that to be complete BS, at least for me it was. It’s not until I started going out more with friends and moving to a new country did things really start to improve! So forget about Frodo and start moving on- right now is especially a good time for you to start doing that b/c like you said you’re more confident and happy with everything else that’s going on in your life right now
you may have written about this, but i’ve forgotten. are internet dating? that will open up a whole world of dating options, not all good but definitely more. and i hope you won’t think only “losers” do internet dating. after college, it’s pretty much the only way to meet people, unless you want to hook up with a co-worker or pick up a random person in a bar.
i do agree with angela’s suggestion on internet dating. it is a medium that lets you meet a larger number of people. if i didn’t do internet dating, i wouldn’t have “dated” half the guys i did and i wouldn’t have met the alpha boy either.
Where have you disappeared to! We miss you
Does it sound weird that I’m afraid of internet dating?
Let me explain myself, there’s mostly two issues involved…
1. Honestly, I haven’t heard much good things about them. Most women (including bloggers) can’t find quality men and if they do, it will only work out for a small percentage of them meanwhile leaving them with tons of questions regarding their self esteem and whether they’ll ever find anyone at all.
2. The bigger problem is that I’m afraid of showing interest in anyone. Ever. To put myself on a dating site is to admit that I’m looking- and that’s… I don’t know, the idea scares the crap out of me. To admit that I’m searching for a guy makes me extremely vulnerable- right now, I can casually look without feeling the pressure to actually find someone (as badly as I want to). I know it may sound sucky but that’s how I feel.
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