It’s only been a few months since I’ve totally gotten over Frodo. He’s more willing to hang out with my group of friends but I feel like this doesn’t have much to do with me. I don’t think he’s romantically interested in me and I don’t think he ever will be. Also, I’ve learned some “deal breakers” about him (I know it’s ironic, coming from a girl like me) and although a short term relationship with him may work, I see us being totally incompatible in the long run because of those reasons.
Other than that, I’ve developed some sort of romantic feelings about Doubles. When our relationship was totally platonic (from my end anyway), I encouraged him to flirt and hang out with my attractive girlfriends (he’s still trying to get over his ex-girlfriend). Now I’m feeling jealousy and I’m not sure if it can be attributed to basic female territoriality or because I actually do like him. It’s a tough situation because…
1. He doesn’t ever compliment me or indicate that he likes me in any way
2. He is very good looking
3. Now he has all of my good looking friends to flirt with
4. He is in love with his ex-girlfriend
I love him so much and I want the world for him but I don’t want to like him. It complicates a very good friendship and I can’t handle the feelings I’ve been feeling for him recently. I know he’ll never go for me. Recently, I’ve been hugging him a lot and he’s pulled away frequently so I know he’s on the lookout for that kind of stuff from me. At the same time, he hooked up with my best friend (Brosky’s sister) this weekend and that upsets me a lot- although he did apologize for that.
My sister tells me I don’t actually like Doubles and that I’m just bored because I’m over Frodo and there’s no one else in the picture.
I saw Brosky last week after a long time. The same night I admitted to Brosky’s sister that I thought he was really hot.
A day later I saw him again and he was very animated in our conversation, encouraging me to come over to Brosky’s sister’s house (where Brosky’s sister and the rest of his family lives). Later, Brosky’s sister and I were hanging out and she received a phone call from him about something irrelevant. Apparently, during the course of this conversation, he told her that I was looking beautiful. I demanded to know if she told him that I thought he was good looking- she denied it. I believe her because she’s not the lying type but I’m confused about him and what he’s trying to do
Also, this weekend, I made out with a really good looking guy in a club while I was drunk. I haven’t kissed any one since February of 2010 (except for a drunken horny kiss from Doubles once last month). After the kiss, I proceeded to have a breakdown about it in a corner while Doubles and my friend (the girl he hooked up with earlier) tried to console me. It was a disaster. I was crying in his shirt and he was threatening to beat the guy up… over two kisses that I initiated. The weird part is that I think I made out with the guy to get Doubles’ attention. I danced with the guy, kissed him and then ran off- Doubles noticed and followed me. I freaked out about it.
I know I’m messing things up between Doubles and myself and I hate it. Why do I have to be such a girl all the time? Why do I have to be so desperately lonely that I’m trying to seduce one of my best friends? I’m an idiot.
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it all sounds so horribly confusing & complicated
i hope things settle down for you soon
You’re not an idiot for possibly developing feelings for Doubles. I think we’ve all been in that position before because our guy friends are always the ones there for us and they actually aren’t jerks! So it’s natural to develop feelings for them. But it sounds like it would be a messy situation if you actually pursued something with Doubles since he hooks up with your friends and is in love with his ex. Maybe you could start looking beyond your circle of friends and start meeting new guys? That can be less complicated at times
P.S. Welcome back! : )
dude, same boat. after i realized that ‘shoudlers’ probably didnt like me like that and he had way to many deal breakers, life did feel a little down and i did look to the other guys in my life, and thought maybe, they were the one. dont lose hope girl! maybe doubles is mr. right but i guess the timing and the place are off?
Guess who’s back?
Shit, now I gotta catch up on all that is you……..By that I mean read your posts………Not that I didn’t think you knew what I meant………..I mean, of course you understood what I was saying, I don’t think you’re dumb or anything………..So you understand, right? Cool.
Oh, and I’m back at talker96.wordpress.com. For those of you who care.
Thanks for your comments, guys (thanks for letting us know you’re alive, talker)
Yeah, I’m definitely over the whole Doubles thing. I can’t believe I was desperate enough to think of him like that.
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