Thanks for nothing

So Frodo and I were sending emails regularly. I’d always hold myself back from replying right away- like I said, trying to avoid a Lawyer-type situation-but his messages to me were usually instantaneous… until about two weeks ago. My laptop was stolen (perfect). I had replied to his email the morning of. And there was no reply from him. Only radio silence. I’m still waiting to buy a new laptop but I’ve checked my email and… nothing. My friend reckoned he was trying to mail me something by post since she had mentioned (in a group setting) what had happened to my computer. But it’s been two weeks so there goes that idea.
Strange from a guy who was telling me my emails were making his day and that he saw a heroine in a movie that reminded him of me and that he really wanted me home for Christmas? Yes.
I don’t know why he lost interest. And especially so abruptly.
I was sad about it for maybe a week but now I’m just confused because he kind of cut it off in the middle of a quasi-conversation. Confusing.
Then again, he was always just out of my reach. Confusing. Confusing. Confusing.
I had the best conversations of my life with him.
It’s easy to forget though. When there are so many beautiful boys around.
And the boys are beautiful here. I am talking ridiculously gorgeous. So much better than back home.
Which is why this thing with Frodo is probably a good thing. I was getting too hung up on the idea of him and I knew it too! My friends are convinced that he’ll eventually email me but I’m not too sure and I wonder if that’ll make all this worse.
If only I had some sort of closure.
I can do without though. I just wish my course load wasn’t so heavy. I’d be able to actually go out and meet people- not that I haven’t already but that’s for later

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